I finally sent the email. It's been 9 months! How crazy?? I don't think I'll ever picture H as anything but a baby! I haven't received the 9 month mail update yet (they aren't too great about sending it to get to me on time...) but I just know she's going to look so big! I try and look back to how my niece was when she was 9 months. I can't picture H that way! That's my baby, not my almost toddler.
So, here's the email I sent. I tweaked a couple things and added what felt right. I believe this email describes what I feel. I'm a little nervous to get a reply... I'm not good with rejection. Well, here you go!
"Hi guys! Happy 9 months to ALL of you! What a beautiful family :) I've
loved so much seeing H grow and thrive in your family! She is so
well adjusted and it's abundantly clear how much she is loved by you
guys. Getting the pictures and letters through email and the mail has
been so reaffirming to me that I made a good decision to place her
with you guys. You truly are great parents to H!
I
loved our visit in April so much and it brought me so much joy and
clarity on my decision. It was so apparent that you guys were her mom
and dad, that was a realization that I needed then in order to really
have some peace with my decision. Thank you for giving me that
opportunity!
It's hard to think that there is only one more agreed upon visit between
us. It would be amazing to know her, to watch her grow, and to be
involved in a more tangible way than just pictures and letters. How
would you guys feel about the possibility of having more visits? I know
this is something that is outside of our communication agreement and
that it is something that needs to be mutually agreed upon and always in
the best interest of H, but I thought I would mention my interest
and see where you guys stood on the subject. Please, take your time,
think, and pray on it. I've had this email saved in my drafts for a
while, praying hard over it. I truly feel we've been given something
special.
Thank you for everything you do. You're such an amazing family."
It's a beautiful letter. If I were them I would be responding immediately with a YES and talk out the details as you go.
ReplyDeletePraying they receive it well and that they are open to considering this possibility for H. Praying as you wait.
Thank you. I haven't heard anything yet.. checking my email a million times a day though. Thanks for the prayers!
DeleteHave you heard anything? Been wondering how things were going.
DeleteSadly, no. I've been in touch with my PC and she said she would try and contact them. They were almost a half month late on H's 9 month update. The agency had to remind them to send it. I still haven't gotten it in the mail yet, although I have received it via email from the agency. My PC still hasn't asked about the email because she's been on vacation. So, hopefully I'll hear something soon. I just want some verification they have received the email and have at least read it. I'm not looking for a definitely yes or no right now. Thanks for asking!
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