Abortion

As, hopefully, many of you know this past week was the anniversary of Roe v. Wade, January 22nd to be exact. Well, I had the privilege to go to Washington DC to participate in the March for Life. It was the most powerful experience I have ever encountered. The fact that over half a million people were there to march for the right to life is amazing! It was very cold and started snowing halfway through the march, but it was completely worth it.

I agree that people will never know what they'll do (concerning abortion) until they are faced with the choice. I am pro-life as well as "pro-choice". I had the right to choose what I wanted to do about my pregnancy: parent or adoption? Isn't that a good enough choice? Death should never be an option. I had the choice to choose, and I chose LIFE.

Many people at my school who I've talked to about pro-life/pro-choice topics have said, "Well you wouldn't know what you'd do if you were raped and ended up pregnant!" or "You would probably abort a pregnancy if you were a teen mom!" Well, actually I was (in a sense) raped and I am a teen mom, but never would I have aborted H. The circumstances that led to her conception were undesirable, but she was not and IS not to blame for that... so why shouldn't she have been given life?

I don't understand how pro-choice advocates can look at themselves in the mirror day after day and be okay with what they are advocating. I recommend everyone (whether pro-life or pro-choice) to attend the National March for Life. It is a very eye-opening experience for both groups.

One thing I hope you receive from this post is DON'T BE IGNORANT! If you are pro-life: learn about why people choose pro-choice. Try to understand where they are coming from so you can get on their level to be able to talk to them. If you are pro-choice: investigate why pro-lifers say that life starts at conception. Understand what you are advocating. And for both sides: know the ins and outs of abortion. Look at pictures of aborted babies. Watch medical videos of an abortion. Investigate why someone would want an abortion. Educate yourself! Don't be ignorant!

If you want more information about the March for Life and other events that occur for the pro-life movement, go to: www.marchforlife.org Also if you'd like more information and informational videos about abortion, go to: www.abort73.com and www.safeandlegal.com

*WARNING: the last two sites do have graphic images and videos. I strongly encourage you to watch and look at them though, we must educate ourselves to know what we are truly up against.

Relapse

Have you ever had that day where it takes all your strength to not do something? You know that if you do it you won't feel any better and in the end you're just hurting yourself with your nosiness? I've had a couple of those before, always having to do with H's birthdad. I would log on to my bestfriend's Facebook account and more or less stalk H's birthdad. I'd go through his Facebook and his girlfriend's Facebook. I'd look through their pictures and read through comments. All with the hopes of finding them miserable. But in the end I was the miserable one.
I haven't done that in many months, but tonight I just have this feeling of needing to check his Facebook, see where he is, find out if their baby has been born yet, see how fat his girlfriend got, etc. The only reason I want to look is to somehow feel justified with where I'm at. I think I'm at a really good place! But I know that if I take that step and creep into his life that I'll just be taking major steps backwards in my own.

I'm honestly writing this to keep myself away from his Facebook and hers. I can already feel the disappointment in my stomach as if I'd already looked. I don't want to take steps back or allow him to control my life when he isn't even present in it. I don't want to relapse. So please, if you read this say a prayer of strength for me. God has been working in my life and I don't want the devil to drag me down. Please, join me as prayer warriors and help God have the victory over this in my life!

The Year for Forgiveness

I never forgive. Ever. I am the most stubborn person you would ever meet. Once people wrong me the bridge is burned and never rebuilt. But this year that's going to change. Yes, I will still guard my heart, but I should not hold anger and hatred in my heart. Especially if that anger and hatred is from years ago. Tonight I finally forgave my ex-bestfriend. If you have read my other posts then you might remember the letter she wrote me, saying that she forgave me and asked for forgiveness. That was a couple months ago.. and tonight I finally was able to write a response letter back to her, saying that I forgive her and I even asked for forgiveness. I've decided to share it with you. God is going to do amazing things this year! This is His year!!!

"Dear L,
 As we go into a new year we are almost forced to take a look at our past. While observing this past year I am amazed at how far I have come and have grown... yet I am not where I want to be. I've had much hate and anger in my heart for the last 2 years. Most of it towards you; but not all. I don't want to hate anymore. Keeping horrible feelings pent up inside me doesn't hurt you, but it kills me. Like you said, there is no need to go into detail about the past and frankly I never want to think about it. But I do want to give you what you deserve.
 I forgive you. This does not mean I forget anything that was done or said, but I choose to forgive you. If you can still remember how I am, you would know this is not easy for me. I am not doing this without God's help. This will be an everyday kind of forgiveness; I will have to make the choice to forgive you daily. God has also placed something else on my heart... I apologize. In our friendship for the times I was a horrible friend, for the times I lied to you, and any time I did not make you feel like the wonderful gift God made you to be. I am deeply sorry.
 I want to end this letter by making sure you know that I love you in Christ. Who am I to say that you are less than me? God created you for a purpose! You are fearfully and wonderfully made! Good luck in this last semester of the year. I'll be praying for you continuously.
In Christ."